Here's the hard part. Heavenly Father has called upon my family to endure yet another trial. Because of our financial situation we may have to move and downsize to a smaller house. A smaller house would mean moving away from our close friends, getting rid of practically half our stuff, and possibly being cramped up in a really small house. Sure a new house would be a fun adventure, but here are the reasons:
- to keep Dad from having another heart attack because he's over stressed.
- To relieve some of the financial burdens from his shoulders.
- To get him a smaller yard so he doesn't die while trying to mow the stupid acre.
- To pay off some of the bills from the medical expenses.
Truth is, I feel like I have lived an amazing life. I have lived in a wonderful community with wonderful friends. I have been able to maintain my standards and live a very moral life. I live in a wonderful city surrounded by amazing good things. I have been raised by amazing parents who have sacrificed so much to raise my siblings and I. I may have never had much possession wise or money wise, but that part of life has never really mattered to me. I don't need much to live on. I don't need a nice car even though it would be fun. I don't need the latest clothes, the ones I have can be altered and changed to look cute. I don't need much. At all. My parents feel so guilty for not being able to provide a life of leisure for my siblings and I. We don't honestly care.
We have a mom who loves us, and a dad who loves us. We have each other. We have pets. We have cars. We have a house. Sure, we have money troubles, but take all of that away and we are so happy and content and can live on practically nothing as long as we have each other.
I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I want to throw my hands up in the air and run away sometimes, so I can only imagine what my sweet parents are feeling. I want them to feel confident in themselves and their ability to provide for my family. My mom has published her book so she can earn income for the family. If you're reading this, go to her website and check it out. It's a fantastic book. http://elliseweaver.weebly.com/
I don't want to lose hope. All we have is faith and hope. I know the Lord will help us and that he will always provide for us; maybe not the way we would hope He would, but he does provide for the faithful. He will help us out, I know he will. This is just another trial.
Please keep my family in your prayers. It doesn't matter what religion you are. Please keep my family in your prayers. Thanks!